Jesy Nelson has revealed her mother begged her to quit Little Mix after she tried to take her own life.
The 30-year-old singer – who left the ‘Black Magic’ band in December to focus on her mental health – opened up about her struggles in 2019 documentary ‘Odd One Out’, in which she revealed she attempt to kill herself with an overdose after being subject to trolling since the group found fame on ‘The X Factor’ in 2011.
Speaking on Fearne Cotton’s ‘Happy Place’ podcast, she said: “Well, I just remember obviously the first time, so obviously I’d taken an overdose. I went into hospital and then I had a music video like a week after…
“And obviously my mum found out and she was distraught and she was outright: ‘This is it, you’re not doing this anymore’.
“Because my mum’s the kind of mum that’s like, ‘Jes, we couldn’t give a s*** what you do as long as you’re happy… That’s all I care about’.
“So she was like, ‘No. This isn’t happening anymore. I’m like not putting my foot down and you’re coming out of this.’ And obviously I didn’t know what to do at the time because it was very early stages of Little Mix as well.”
Jesy has also opened up on her insecurities, and explained while she still has her “struggles”, she is in a “better” place since leaving the band.
She added: “I’ll never sit and lie and be like, oh, I’m so happy now, I don’t have any insecurities as that’s an absolute lie, I still have my insecurities, I still have my struggles…
“I guess the thing that I’m better with now, is that I see little things now when I do a music video, I’m not looking on the camera and thinking, oh my God, I don’t look as skinny as Jade [Thirlwall], [Leigh-Anne Pinnock] and Perrie [Edwards]…
“‘And that’s what I did every single day, and for the first time ever, I did my music video and I enjoyed it. I absolutely loved it and I was like, this is the feeling I should have had the whole time.”
Jesy defended her decision to embark on a solo career after leaving Little Mix, and pointed out she never said she was quitting “the music industry”.
She said: “I think a lot of people have misconstrued what I meant in my statement, they’re like ‘Oh, so now she’s going solo’. I never said in my statement, ‘I’m coming out of the music industry, I’m not going to do music anymore…’
“I said, ‘I’m just going to start a new chapter of my life, I just want to make myself happy. I don’t know what that’s going to be, but I need to look after myself now, make myself feel better again.’ “